I wonder if anybody actually still follows this blog….

Life’s a little screwed now…extremely disorganized and I’ve no idea what do I want actually. Yesterday I could be thinking of going back to what I’ve been working hard for but today I am planning or working on something that’s not gonna allow me to go back to it. Apparently, the best thing to do is to go back for it but it’s against what I actually want.

I put 90% of the blame on life…for being too short and for how hectic life has been for almost everyone that I know of. I also want to put some blame on time, why does it deliberately crawls when I’m doing things that I don’t like and speed up when I’m enjoying? Maybe I should put all the blame on me instead….for being not discipline and not mature enough to make correct decisions and also not having satisfiable determination to sustain and maintain what I actually had.

Sigh.

I wish I can strike lottery(I don’t even buy or place bets in e first place….) and I would secretly quit ‘it’ and sign up for a new one then hopefully everyone wouldn’t be aware of everything. GAHHH. I cannot let ‘them’ know. I don’t want to disappoint anyone of ‘them’, although ‘they’ would be my solution to everything… This time round, I’m seriously gonna take it up all alone or perhaps with B and settle everything before it gets out of control.

Anyway, chinese new year is around the corner! I can’t wait for Peng Cai, Suckling Pig, steamboat, abalone, cantonese veggie thing, dad’s company dinner…lotsa poker, casino blackjack, 21, baccarat, casino war and perhaps some mahjong! Woohoo. Last but not least, the reunion dinner as well as collecting angpows!

After chinese new year, we’re planning to go Macau with B and our friends. Bunch of ‘kids’ going to do some crazy stuff! Hahahaha. Hopefully we’ll go there and screams, “TOO MANY!” to the banker all the time! HAHAHA. Then goes, ‘deuce, deuce, deuce!” when we’re playing casino war. Hahahah then all of us come back with Prada here, Gucci there, LV everywhere. Hopefully, this month I earn enough for the playing part and HOPEFULLY dad is willing to sponsor the rest!

But before I go Macau, I gotta settle the things in Singapore first!

CIAO!